Sunday, November 3, 2013

What if

What if..
there is no such thing as happiness.  Love is merely a chemical reaction in the brain.
Essentially your body lies to you.  Hormones and chemicals explode and make a false image of reality
He never loved you
No one will ever really care for you.  You will never find true love.

You will always be alone.

I know there will always be this gaping hole.  This awful emptiness.   Nothingness.  I am numb.  I CAN GET JAZZED UP with some cool music.  Go to church.  The mall.  For a precious few minutes forget that I am alone.  But it's like a movie.  I get lost in a fantasy for a while.  Then the crash and I am alone in my apartment.  Darkness

I can't remember the last time I had a good conversation

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